It feels like so long since I've led worship. It's such an honor, leading people before God.
My wrists hurt from playing the keyboard... but I still love it.
I always have trouble picking songs... this week, no different.

Sometimes I feel so inadequate... spiritually, musically... and then I become hesitant, scared...
But then I remember that if I just bring the best that I have, that's all I've got to do. And God will do the rest.

So what if I can't play like some crazy jazz or concert pianist? God looks at the heart.
So what if we don't sound like a rock band? It ain't about the instruments/the people playing/the "feelings"...
It makes me sad to hear "oh no, no drums this week" or "that song is boring" or...
I know it's only human. But it makes me sad: "worship" for entertainment purposes only.

If we come expecting to experience God, then He'll surely meet us.

Music is an amazing thing! How it somehow allows us to express feelings that can't be formed into mere words.

Oh my goodness, my butt hurts from sitting on the ground all day.

When I work from home, I sit indian style on the floor and place the laptop on the fold-out tray that Andres and Peter got us for our wedding. This cannot be good for my knee joints or my posture.

I've probably taken less than 200 steps today. That's what happens when I work from home. I'm going to turn into a rock like this. It looks nice outside. Time to go out for a walk.

And then I'm going to come home and eat a fuji apple and hot cheetos. Yum!
(Amy, I have a bag of hot cheetos for you. It was on sale last week!)

I get to be a bridesmaid for an old roommate in September. Gosh, how I love this girl.

So the dresses are all set. They're red holiday dresses on sale at Banana Republic and only $43! What a steal! Empire waisted, knee length, and strapless. I'm a bit worried about the strapless part. Strapless = dangerous? I own strapless stuff but have never ventured out in public without something over it covering my shoulders at least.

It's beautiful and I can wear it even after the wedding. Yay.

Okay, so now we need to get her her dress. She's going to be one hot bride.

American Idol is on again tonight. I love that show.

I'm happy I have my voice back. I can actually sing a verse of a song without coughing or feeling like I'm getting the air rudely sucked out of my lungs. Yay... I just want to be well again.

So supposedly dairy and spicy stuff aren't good for the vocal cords. But still...

Happiness is a big jar of kimchee.

The library is a wonderful resource. I love going there to borrow CDs. I discovered some great artists that way. Since we have a high Asian population around here, the library also shelves foreign selections. I was also surprised to find many popular and recent releases, like the one I'm listening to now. Nice.

What is not nice is when you lose something you borrow, like me. *smack head*

I renewed it so I have 3 more weeks to find it... but I looked practically everywhere. The price would be $18 for the CD (I would never pay so much for a CD, that's just crazy!) and $5 for processing. $23, ugh. But they might also let me find a copy mysefl + $5 processing fee. Does anyone have a copy of The Princess Diaries 2 soundtrack that they no longer want or is willing to sell for a reasonable price?

Where could it have gone?! My brain has been on vacation.

Wow, I'm starting to feel human again. And it feels so good. Let us embrace health!
Still coughing and swallowing phlegm, but at least I don't feel like I'm walking around with a lead sweater; all heavy and groggy. It was not fun.

I celebrated by eating some shrimp snacks (shiao way shen). It's been sitting next to me for the past few days.
Also, the Chengs make the yummiest lemon bars. Oh my gosh, so good!

After work I'm going to go to Wal-Mart! Fun! We need shampoo, something that smells good. I'm not a big fan of showering, but I'll do it. The best part of showering is all the pretty smells.

The OC is on tonight. So it's true, they are cancelling the show!! Noooooo!!! Why?? It's so good!!
Last day is Feb 22nd. *cry*

For those of you wondering, I think Mucinex does work. I'm coughing up mucus-galore. But then, I was pretty phlegmy even before I took it. Too bad I don't know how to spit it out so it all goes into my stomach. The other day I dreamt that I spat out phlegm. A whole handfull! And I mean a WHOLE HAND FULL, as if I threw it up! It was green and orange and white, but like soft cheese... so nasty; I was very fascinated.

I'm surprised Sam isn't sick yet. He has super immunity or something. He has been so nice to me, making me comfort foods and treats. Sometimes I wish I was sick more often so I get this special treatment.

I drink so much water b/c I'm constantly thirsty. But they just feed the ever-increasing mucus.

I don't think I have just a cold. But I also don't think I have the flu b/c I'm not achy... but am constantly tired. Do you think I should still go see a doctor? It should get better by itself, right? It's been almost 3 weeks and the chest congestion just started last week. Any docs in the house?

I've been cooped up in the house since Saturday, I need to make myself go out and get some fresh air after work.

I've been coughing up a storm. People cubicles away IM me to see if I'm okay. How embarrassing.

From the book I'm reading...
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boxing god

Oh my! They actually made a movie out of Perfume, The Story of a Murderer! It's limited screening though. I must go search for it. Do you ever fear that the movie rendition will let you down? How do you capture the essence of such a book through visuals? Should be interesting! I'm scared what the last scene will look like. I'm still disturbed till this day every time I think about it. But it's not a scary book. The movie poster looks scary, b/c of the red stuff... but they're rose pedals and not blood.

PS, I Love You will be in theatres 2008. Hillary Swank to play the lead. I can imagine her playing that part.