I almost forgot how this works, it's been so long... 

Work has been such a struggle, full-on stress, big rain clouds overhead with thunderstorms... and the possible end of the tunnel may not be till 2012. I feel overwhelmed and drained, I'm just so tired. I... don't... know... if... I'll... make... it... {God, I need You to step in. Give me the strength and a better attitude to get through it.} 

But Noah brightens our life, he is so full of energy and curiosity and he is talking so much now. We're so amazed every week at the new words he's using and the sentences he's making. I love how he plays and pretends, it's so adorable and creative. 

Tonight before he fell asleep, he was reprimanding one of his stuffed animals: Bu yao da! (No hitting!) Bear ku ku. (Bear's crying.)

He makes my heart super happy and he gave me so many kisses today. I sure needed them.

I told S about my bad day at work and he went to get some comfort food for dinner. It was very nice of him. I've been indulging in quite a bit of comfort food as of late. Oh.... better watch it! 

I would like to eat 3 fresh round glazed donuts from Donut Tree! With a cup of coffee! And not think about the calories. That would be oh so heavenly. Mmm.... 

Wow, hi! It's been a long time, xanga. The last time I wrote in you, I was still pregnant.

And in a week, on Father's Day, N will be a year old!

Whoever said that having a child is like having your heart walk outside of your body should get the grand prize.

N is toddling now! It started out as accidental little steps as he was playing. He'd get this look of, "Waaaiiitt... I don't know how to do this" and fall to the ground. Now he is starting to take more steps and still falling... more confidence in his steps and less care about falling. He falls a lot. He still crawls most of the time.

I think to myself everyday, "He is so amazing! And God is so amazing!" A little cell becoming a personality all his own? This amazing, wonderful, lovable, adorable being who hugs, smiles, hides, cries, kisses, plays tricks on us...?!  

Just amazing. I am so blessed I get to be his Mom.

Oh wow... has another month passed?

Month 7
Week 27 - You weigh about a head of cauliflower and are about 14.5" long. You sleep and wake at regular intervals, opening and closing your eyes. With more brain tissue developing, your brain is very active now.
04/06/09 - W27D2 - I woke up in the middle of the night with weird tailbone pains. It hurts when I walk, sit, get up, bend over, cough, sneeze, turn... Daddy felt so bad for me I think he teared up. He made me a hot water bottle to lean on but you kept kicking so much. I realized it might have been too warm for you. Now he is out to buy me a donut cushion to sit on.
04/08/09 - W27D4 - My tailbone pain is almost all gone. Pregnancy sure does interesting things to a woman's body.
04/09/09 - W27D5 - Uh oh, my belly button is getting pretty shallow.
04/11/09 - W27D7 - How nice of Auntie Anne and Uncle Luke to let us use their infant car seat and stroller. It's like brand new! Now we have something to bring you home in from the hospital.
Week 28 - You weigh around a head of Chinese cabbage and measure 14.8". You can blink your eyes that may be able to see light filtered through my tummy. You also have eyelashes now! You're developing billions of neurons in your brain and adding more body fat.
04/12/09 - W28D1 - Auntie Katelyn and Auntie Aileen took Mommy out for a fun girls' day. I was treated to watch the Mama Mia musical and a delicious meal. They also bought you the cutest clothes and gifts. I felt so spoiled today! I am overwhelmed by the love and generosity of so many friends.
04/14/09 - W28D3 - Daddy is so cute when he is half asleep. He awoke when I was getting ready for work. With half opened eyes he mumbled, "I love you and I love T-Rex." Then, "zzzzz..."
04/16/09 - W28D5 - T-Rex, did you eat a can of Popeye's spinach? Your movements are getting much stronger. Even your hiccups feel big now. I'm so excited you're growing bigger and getting stronger... except when you dance on my bladder.
04/17/09 - W28D6 - The nurse said you have a strong heartbeat @ 144 beats/min. She let me listen to it for a little longer. I loved it. I've gained 11 pounds to date.
04/17/09 - W28D6 - We went shopping with Grandma L tonight. She saw some cute outfits and had to buy them for you. There are many people excited about your arrival.
04/18/09 - W28D7 - Ann GuGu threw us a nice baby shower today. Grandpa/ma S prepared so much yummy foods and even set up a video camera. You got a lot of goodies from Daddy's side of the family.
Week 29 - You weigh like a butternut squash and are slightly over 15" long. Your muscles and lungs are continuing to mature and your brain is growing bigger to make room for your developing brain.
04/20/09 - W29D2 - The sight of a pregnant woman brings out the humanity in many people. I had dropped something today and a stranger rushed over to tell me he'd pick it up. I love being pregnant!
04/21/09 - W29D3 - I got to see you again today! I was so pleansantly surprised to see that you are noticeaby bigger and chubbier! You weigh in at 3 lbs and 1 oz, that's 3 times what you weighed 2 months ago! Daddy was bummed he couldn't be there. He gave me a DVD-R so the technician could record it for him. We watched it tonight. We saw you making a sucking motion with your mouth. We think you are so cute!
04/21/09 - W29D3 - Daddy came across a dead baby bird today, it made him so sad. It was so young it didn't even have feathers. He took pictures to show me. It made me sad, too.
04/22/09 - W29D4 - You had the hiccups for quite awhile today. Daddy and I laid in bed and enjoyed feeling your rhythmic movements.
04/22/09 - W29D4 - I brought your ultrasound pictures to share with my coworkers. They think you are so cute. There's one of you that they all love so much. It looks like you're blowing bubbles.
04/24/09 - W29D6 - I learned today that when my stomach gets really hard, it's not you, they're braxton hicks, contractions to prepare me for labor and delivery. I was pretty bummed. This whole time I thought it was you trying to find a cozy spot in there.
04/25/09 - W29D7 - Amy Ah-Yi and I went grocery shopping tonight. We went to the produce section to use their scale. You weigh about a bag of grapes plus a head of lettuce. We took turns holding them to feel how heavy you are.
Week 30 - You are now 15.7" and weigh about a head of cabbage. Your eyesight continues to develop.
04/27/09 - W30D2 - It's 4 in the morning. I don't feel good and I can't sleep. This being the 3rd trimester w/ the doctors' concerns I often worry that you'll want to make an early debut. I know I need to give all this up to God. It seems when I worry about you most you start having the hiccups, like now. Stay inside another couple months and hiccup for me, will you?
04/27/09 - W30D2 - I learned something new about Daddy today: he likes black berries! There's so much to learn about a person, especially ones you love. I can't wait to learn about your likes and dislikes, your natural talents, see your personality come through...
04/30/09 - W30D5 - I'm getting nervous now that there's only 2 months left. We still want to redo the bathroom and get new carpet/flooring before you arrive. We actually meant to do this when we moved in 6 years ago... but you are the catalyst that's going to make it really happen.
04/30/09 - W30D5 -  Daddy tied a stuffed dog/pillow to himself today to see what it'd be like to carry you around in a baby carrier. He's going to go to the gym tonight to work on his back so he can carry you longer.
05/01/09 - W30D6 - I'm worried because I'm getting these braxton hicks so often. I pray they're not affecting your heart rate especially b/c we know my condition could cause you problems in the 3rd trimester. We're waiting for the nurse to call back. Daddy can only try to comfort me. Please just keep moving so I know you're okay.
05/02/09 - W30D7 - 14 years ago today Daddy and Mommy started dating. For our anniversary, Daddy promised me he'd clean the house. That makes me so happy b/c we have LOTS to clean!